reuniting memories..

"Kala ko kasi meron pa akong babalikan… wala na pala."

December 5, 2010. I went to Lucban, Quezon to witness the Regional Press Conference held at Batis Aramin. It was supposed to be a gathering of all the alumni of the Kingfisher. I was supposed to meet up with Aaron (Chubby), Alvin (Dads) and Augie at the front of Gate 2 of  SLSU at 8 in the morning however, I woke up too late to make it at 8. to my surprise, I still came early. Nothing new. Everything we're meeting up, I always came first. Sometimes I think that am I the only one who's excited to meet them? I don’t think so. Maybe because I have gotten the American culture that every minute counts.

By the way, I tried to contact everyone and it seems that everyone was still at home. Augie cant make it earlier and she'll be coming after lunch. Chubby said he was on the way.. Weeh? How far was Lucena from Lucban? Hmmm… and Dads.. He was not answering his phone. Much like him.

So I texted KF people. Luckily, Myla replied. Myla became part of the KF when we graduated. So I don’t really have any bonding with her at all. But thank goodness she's friendly. So she texted back and told me that there were still some kf on the pub. Luckily, Maymosa was there. I saw her just went out of the trike with her luggage. Hai.. I miss press cons. So I went with her in the pub and saw unfamiliar faces. They were like strangers. It was like coming to a place where you thought you still belong only to realize that you have replaced by someone else. Or lets just say, a group of new people needed to soar high so the place you used to call home suddenly became a house.

I made some phone calls to the people I was supposed to be with. After waiting for almost an hour, Chubby came. Then we went to Batis. There I saw Cessie. I miss her. My KF twin. Then I saw Teacher Choy. Hai.. Press con days are over. Its time for new birds to soar and to prove that they can do whatever we did and hopefully surpassed us, because that's what it was supposed to be right? Progenies needed to be better than the parents so the future gen will have a better future.

I suddenly realized why I was here. We went here so we can have time to update each others lives and of course, to try to teach our progenies what we used to learn as a journalist. It doesn’t necessarily mean that following our techniques will make them win, but we'll never know. We're just crossing our fingers that these juries still have the same taste after 3 long years. Now I suddenly realized how time passed by so quickly. How matured I became. Because suddenly, everyone in the crowd was so young and naïve of the real competition. It was like, they don’t have the same spirits as we used to have during our time. Way back, everyone was so excited. You could feel the urge to win and the urge to prove how great they were. That is what was missing in this crowd.

When Myla approached me to give some techniques, I suddenly remember that the last time I actually wrote was back college. Now I don’t really know if I can still write. (maybe that's why I am here write now. Trying to thread words so I can create something) I said to her, I'll try to remember how to write. Maybe familiarizing with the event will make me remember how it is to write. Then Dads came. I knew it. He would feel the same awkwardness I felt. It was maybe because, Dads is the kind of person you can easily get along with. He was some kinda quiet and serious and he don’t really talk to people he don’t know. Lets just put it that way. At least I was not the only who felt that way. Augie came then Bujoy then Reanne. I miss these people. They were my treasures before and I guess even up to now. I will keep coming back to Lucban if all these people will be there to wait for me. We took some pictures. Remembering good all days. Everything was so perfect. I know Kuya Wilyam, Kuya Essex and Lourdes will be envy about it. Well of course Janlo came. Super late. He was a speaker in a category. So he had all the excuse to be late. Hmmp! Janlo you have to admit. You were always late. Hahaha…

Anyways, Dads and I decided to stay until the morning. We talked.. Reminisce.. Remember what we were before. Good thing Cessie stayed with us. We didn’t go to the KF's room. Maybe because we felt we're not welcome anymore. Like as if the room was full of memory and there's no space left for the old ones. So we find some place were we can have a chat. A place where we can reminisce without having the thought of the new ones. Where our memories and experiences will be the lead roles.  I know we're past  the press con days but our memories will be as fresh as ever. We took some pictures so we can have memories to go back to.

The good thing about KF is that once a KF will always be KF. Now we (Dads, Cessie and I) came to a conclusion that its not the people of KF that matters. The real thing was the memories that we have with these people were the reasons why we kept coming back. And it was not Lucban that we loved. It was the people we spent our years in Lucban with that matters. Reuniting with these people made me realized that nowadays, it was a luxury to be with the company of your true friends. A luxury I would never regret doing.

she bangs..

i finally decided to wear a bangs.

hahaha.. im not really adventurous when it comes to my image but i do love to dress up. then i just woke up and i realized that i wanted to change my very usual hairstyle. i love my straight middle length hair but its just that i realized that i need to put some twist on my look. hai.. i was afraid of how i would look like. i was born to be a perfectionist that's why i hated twist. i was into plans. everything has to be planned. so if something goes wrong, at least i stick to the plan.. and most of the time, i had plan b.

and it was lately that i began to live life without a plan. it was like, someone has put a spell on me that all my plans has been erased. i must admit, i was an OC before. yeah. i mean it.. everything was planned. like what im going to wear. what im gonna eat. it was all planned.. that explained my planner and journal. id like everything to be organized. i have boxes for things and so forth..

anyway, this was really all about the la salle taft incident. i believed that the bombing was a planned one. why? because if you're going to think about it this way, a lot of people was involved. be it a frat war or just a gang war or whatever,  lots of people had been injured. now i wondered what the justices would do to give justice to these poor victims who just happened to be at the wrong place and at the wrong time. i cried while watching an interview of a dad who was explaining how hard it was to sign a waiver to cut the legs of her daughter. and that interview was sooo touching. i envy the courage of that girl. despite the fact that her two legs has been removed, she still wanted to be a lawyer. that's the spirit.


now, i wonder what happened to my spirit?

i still have two legs. i never had any accident so far. but my will to be a doctor had vanished for some reason i dont know.

i hope living a dream was like getting yourself a bangs.. so easy.

reminiscing g-mik days...

g-mik was one of my fave shows way back.. when i was a teen.

now you're wondering why i brought up g-mik. this crazy reminiscing began last week.. about the same day, thursday, when i happened to bump at a familiar face.. miko samson.

ding! all of a sudden, memories came flashing back.. as if i was the teeny bop i was before, i giggle. he used to be my crush. of course aside from my ultimate crush, john prats, miko was the reason why i watched g-mik.


miko samson, as to my surprise, still looks the same. as i was sipping my mocha frappe, i tried to remember how he looked before. as if he never aged, OME! he's still the same miko samson i remembered. i wonder when g-mik would have a reunion.

g-mik, if you were asking, was a tv show for teens every saturday. its cast includes john prats, camille prats, angelica panganiban, carlo aquino, stefano mori and miko samson. this was a craze way back. they used to have apparels, notebooks and the g-mik nation - their nationwide tour. i remember buying a lot of posters and memorabilia.. my mum used to ask me what i am going with those stupidness, i remember telling my mum, "its a collection!"

as far as i remember, g-mik started when i was in grade 5. i never missed any of their episodes even when they were reinvented and added some casts like heart evangelista and janus del prado.until i was in high school, i was so hooked to this group that i even asked my aunt (ate jenny) to accompany me on one of the shooting days of PAHINA (carlo aquino's educational show) that happens to be on location in our town. that white house where they shoot the episodes of pahina happened to be within our vicinity. my aunt, who is in her early twenties that time, was eyeing carlo aquino. hahaha.. JCS (john, carlo and stefano) were such a craze to all the teens even teens at heart.

i never got the chance to see miko samson before. so when i bumped at him at the starbucks in serendra, i almost faint. i remember how i wish to see this guy before. he was so finesse and elegant. there was something about him that made me remember everything. i listened to his voice while he was chatting with his friends.my gosh! he talks soooper smart. you wouldnt even believe that he's real. he was not tall as i expected it but damn, he was so gorgeous. not to mention the fact that he was reading some books- this was educational books that i saw, he was still so brainy.
then after that night, i began my research. i searched for g-mik now and then. i found out that miko samson is currently studying law at ateneo. that explains the seriousness with the books. i learned so much about him that my admiration grew stronger. he is really someone to look up to. from a well-off family, a consistent honor student now studying law, a talented guy.. what more can you asked for. now im wondering why he quit show business.
can't help but wonder.. if i go back to serendra, will i see him again?

now i can't wait to have a coffee again. can't wait for off.

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1.03.01

birthday blues..

its the first day of my 22nd year on earth.. weeh. i sooper love aug 24! im done thanking everyone who greeted me thru text and thru email and social networking sites. this is what i love.. the day after my birthday. this is when i get the chance to thank everyone who greeted me.. everyone who took some time to think of me and who find some time to extend their greetings thru whatever means. this is a great day to reunite with fam and friends..

i started my day with a coffee.. i promised myself that im gonna make it as simple as possible.. as if it was just an ordinary day in my purplish existence.. i was laughing when no one in the fam greeted me.. this is what i wished.. no greetings from any fam member so i can believe that it is just a regular day aside from the fact that im on leave at the office. but you really cant escape birthdays.. people from the office started greeting me.. even last night, there are early greetings.. i received text messages from different people wishing different things and extending their greetings to my most special day. and one of the messages that made me smile was the message that came from a new found love in the office. haha.. it was as if this is what would complete the day. my boss even texted me that the guy is looking at our spot in the office as if looking for me.. that gives me hope.. hehe.. well i tried to resist him but there's just something about him that made me head over heels.

i thought at home was just an ordinary day but then again, you cant really escape birthdays.. my little sister doesnt want to go school because she's insisting that its my birthday and we should celebrate. for god sake, my sister is just 6 yrs old and she's telling all this things to my mum and my dad.. sooper full of reasons. she trying to pattern my birthday to my sis' who just celebrated hers with a party last aug 13. we hosted a party at home with all her friends and even invited her prof at her school. weeeh.. children nowadays are more intelligent and they tend to remember everything.. anyway, after all the convincing techniques that we tried.. she finally agreed to go to school. whooa! it took all of us.. my mum, my dad, my bro (Rigor), my sis (Hyacinth) and me to convince this 6yr old gurl to go to school. i guess we just spoiled her too much.

going back... i spent my birthday with my fam in a mall of course after my little sis, Hannah, got off from school. we went to World of Fun.. the rationale? i just wanna have fun on a day like this.. then we bought some groceries and my mum cook dinner. we had a dinner. we ate meatball spagetti and fried dori and chicken and a lot more.. haha..

at the end of the day, i realized that i will be spending more time with my fam.  i realized how much i missed them.

thanks everyone for the greetings. my ATHENA fam, POSEIDON, and TITAN friends.. my KF buddies, my BSBIOLOGY classmates and friends, my college friends, highschool and grade school friends and everyone who greeted me.. i tried to make it an ordinary day but you guys made it soo special.. thanks jejemon for the inspiration.. and thanks for the twice greetings. i really appreciate it. im excited to see you.

this is where i should start my new year. a blog.

and i miss writing.