she bangs..

i finally decided to wear a bangs.

hahaha.. im not really adventurous when it comes to my image but i do love to dress up. then i just woke up and i realized that i wanted to change my very usual hairstyle. i love my straight middle length hair but its just that i realized that i need to put some twist on my look. hai.. i was afraid of how i would look like. i was born to be a perfectionist that's why i hated twist. i was into plans. everything has to be planned. so if something goes wrong, at least i stick to the plan.. and most of the time, i had plan b.

and it was lately that i began to live life without a plan. it was like, someone has put a spell on me that all my plans has been erased. i must admit, i was an OC before. yeah. i mean it.. everything was planned. like what im going to wear. what im gonna eat. it was all planned.. that explained my planner and journal. id like everything to be organized. i have boxes for things and so forth..

anyway, this was really all about the la salle taft incident. i believed that the bombing was a planned one. why? because if you're going to think about it this way, a lot of people was involved. be it a frat war or just a gang war or whatever,  lots of people had been injured. now i wondered what the justices would do to give justice to these poor victims who just happened to be at the wrong place and at the wrong time. i cried while watching an interview of a dad who was explaining how hard it was to sign a waiver to cut the legs of her daughter. and that interview was sooo touching. i envy the courage of that girl. despite the fact that her two legs has been removed, she still wanted to be a lawyer. that's the spirit.


now, i wonder what happened to my spirit?

i still have two legs. i never had any accident so far. but my will to be a doctor had vanished for some reason i dont know.

i hope living a dream was like getting yourself a bangs.. so easy.